British fitness promoter Meggan Kirkland she revealed that she is pregnant.
“Recently, we found out that a new little person is joining our family, and suddenly, the life we started imagining at the age of 4, is over,” Meggan, 29, wrote on Instagram on Tuesday, February 17, referring to her husband. Niall Kirkland. “Like a shooting star, he shot through our world and almost immediately, flew out of sight.”
She continued, “I haven’t heard much about premature loss/chemical pregnancy. I don’t like the word chemical because it almost takes on a ‘real,’ which it isn’t. That feeling of excitement, your world changing, the endless possibilities of where life is going to go, who you’re going to meet, when you first see that exact test, escape, feeling invincible.”
A chemical pregnancy, according to the Cleveland Clinic, is a miscarriage that occurs before the fifth week of pregnancy.
“I wasn’t sure if I was going to share this, even if it was so personal, but really, this space has always made me feel so welcome and at home,” Meggan wrote on Instagram. “And isn’t this life? The real, raw, hard parts that we are often ashamed to share with others. I know for many people who feel this pain silently, they can feel lonely.”
He continued, “So, if you’re doing the same thing right now, or you’ve done it before, you’re not alone.”
Meggan and her husband, Niall, have since been supported by the online community as they grieve the loss.
“Thank you for the outpouring of love and sharing the same stories as me,” Meggan wrote on her Instagram Stories on Wednesday, February 18. “I wanted to return the love to all the others who have experienced it. Every day I feel a little easier, in the morning it’s harder. I wake up and forget a minute, then I remember.”
Meggan told fans that she tried to remember to find happiness and hope to move forward.
It’s been a tough road to parenthood for many famous parents, including Chrissy Teigen and John Legend. After in vitro fertilization failed on the first try, Teigen wondered if she had done something wrong. “You look at anything you can blame, especially yourself,” Teigen explained to New York Magazine’s The Cut in April. […]
“I know that there is still joy, and I focus on the parts that I can find on the days when this feels very difficult,” she said. “My world feels a little smaller and sadder since I brought my loved ones and you here. So thank you for that.”
Meggan, a fitness influencer with over a million Instagram followers, shared a poem about her loss.
“I will never count your little toes, I will never smell your skin,” the poem began. “How long were your eyelashes, time will not tell, you left this world before you arrived, now we are separated, I hope you felt my warmth, my love. [and] my heartbeat.”
The poem concludes by saying, “Now here I am, saddened by the soul that I will never need. I will never get to touch your little skin or kiss your little feet. Your life was short, my love, before you left. So save a place for me in heaven, I will meet you there one day.”
Meggan and Niall have been married since 2022 and already have a daughter Winnie.
